A Completely Different Light

To everyone out there that has ever felt alone, let down and helpless, listen to this song and you’ll realize that there is always someone out there willing to talk to you late at night or just show up to where you live and hold you and hand you tissues. 

I’m a stronger person because of all of my friends and mostly my sisters out there who told me that all I have to do is live my life for myself and not for someone else. I am now a better person not because of someone else but because I decided how I wanted to live my life. 

Just remember if someone wants to be in your life they’ll make an effort and if not they aren’t worth your time, money or patience. If I knew this wouldn’t be read by certain people then I’d really let my heart out but it’s okay for now. 

I love you all. 

You. Yes, you. I am writing this for you.

I know you are reading this. And I want you to know I am writing this for you. No one else will understand. No one else knows. They think that this is for them. But it’s not. I am writing this for you.

I want you to know, life…it’s hard. Every day can be a challenge. It can be a challenge to get up in the morning. To get yourself out of bed. To put on that smile. But I want you to know, that smile is what keeps me going some days. You need to remember, even through the tough times, you are amazing. You really are.

You should be happy. You are gorgeous.

I know that the weather might not be perfect. You might have to turn your back to the wind or feel the cold nipping at your nose. But you know what, at least you are there to feel it. At least you can enjoy the sun’s warm rays on your face. Or that cold February wind biting at your cheeks. You know what that means?

You are alive.

Everything will be okay.

Edward Abbey (via peroculi)

(Source: quote-book)

Just saying

(Source: girl-non-grata)

I waited.
Smoked, drank, counted
the minutes away,
drew shapes in the air with my finger
bled lines of poetry into my moleskin.
I dreamt the hours by,
counted all the stars in the sky,
twice. 

I smashed the clocks on the floor
bent the arms to watch
the days flash by.
My breath was heat on the glass,
that’s when I knew I was still alive.

I waited.
Until I forgot what I was waiting for. 

This isn’t happiness.

The only worthwhile performance at the VMA’s this year. 

(Source: jmonsterbby, via allison-wonderland-3)

I’ve been busy beyond belief and I cannot believe how much I’ve accomplished. 

AOII won 2nd for Greek Week

Appol Corps Coordinator

Grades are going up

I don’t know sometimes how I handle all the stress but somehow I do. I don’t think people know that I feel lonely everyday of my life but I am afraid to tell the people that are closest to me because they might think something is wrong. I always have a smile on my face or I’m making someone laugh but sometimes I am covering something that is going on. My AOII sisters were and always be will there for me when I was and am at my lowest. I truly don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have someone there to just talk and keep me busy so I don’t think about everything else going on. I am a strong person now because of all of my sisters that have my back and are constantly pushing me to do bigger and better things. I love them all, every last one of them.

ohhblueeyes:

This shows a perfect example of ignorance. It is no different than hating a religion you’ve never practiced or experienced. You have no insight, no foundation for which to make your accusations. The shallowness doesn’t come from being a part of organizations that have enriched peoples lives for centuries, but from people like this who think they are entitled to bash and degrade the choices of others.

If greeks are so incompetent and not independent as you say, please explain why 33 Presidents and 17 Vice Presidents of the United States were Greek? How about the fact that 85% of the Fortune 500 executives are members of Greek organizations and of the nation’s 50 largest corporations, 43 are headed by Greeks. Or why greeks tend to hold better grades and have a higher chance of being hired over non-greeks? Explain why persons involved in greek life are natural leaders and go on to be leaders in their communities, careers and personal lives? And if we’re so shallow, how is it that Greek organizations raise and donate millions of dollars a year for philanthropic causes and volunteer hundreds of hours in local, national and international communities?

Do some research before you lump all greeks into a stereotypical category. 

So no, I’ve never had a childhood growing up saying, “daddy, buy me this” or attending country clubs for my 16th birthday, and I certainly do not own matching Vera Bradley luggage, but I have found a support group of people who love and respect me for who I am. Who have been a rock when I needed it in my life and have pushed me to be the best version of myself. Reminding me to hold my life in accordance with our ritual and never forgetting that my actions reflect on others. Regardless of what you and your narrow mindedness thinks, greek life has changed my life in more ways then I can count. I have become a confident and eloquent young woman who is a leader thanks to my involvement in an organization that bases itself on steadfast ritual and tradition. I will take my experiences with me for the rest of my life and you’re right, will raise my children to expect greatness from themselves as well. 

So I pose these questions to the antagonists to greek life. What have you done with your life to be proud of? What have you offered your community? What do you stand for and how have you strived to achieve it? Because I can answer every single question easily. I know where I belong and I will have a support group for the rest of my life. 

And if you say I paid for my friends, then I certainly didn’t pay enough. 

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Day 2- Favorite Song

I am one of those people who believe everyone has a song. One song that they can relate to, that “is them” and that song truly affect their life. The song may remain the same song forever, or change daily, or even hourly, with you mood. It is a song that when you hear it, you just know exactly what it means, both on the surface and in hidden meanings. A song that you insist was written just for you, to speak to you. It is your song.

I don’t have just one song; I have a few of them. Of these songs there is one that I find I relate to the most. It seems to take all my emotions and pull them together. Reciting them back to me to hear, and react to all over again. It finds my hate, my happiness, the love and sadness, and then it shoves them all together into a lyrical rendition, and spits it back out at me in less then 5 minutes. It’s like reliving every important moment in your life, but in a series of short verses. This is my “everything” song. The song I listen to when I just need music.  Santogold has been a long time favorite of mine though it’s not my usual music it helps to encompass any moods into one and pick me up.  

appstateaoii:

The Alpha Omicron Pi Fraternity “AOII” is a fraternity (the term sorority was not yet used) that was founded on January 2, 1987 at Barnard College. This fraternity was founded by four adventurous women: Helen St. Clair Mullan, Stella George Stern Perry, Elizabeth Heywood Wyman, and Jessie Wallace…